So a few weeks after, "making it public" that I fight depression, I finally started to make a breakthrough. Every day since hitting puberty my days have been filled with the question, "will today be good? or will it be bad?" It never felt like I had a choice in the answer to the question. It seemed like no matter how badly I tried to "fake it til you make it" or to "just stay positive," if that day was going to be bad, it stayed bad. I would fall into an emotional slump that I just could not bring myself out of, and sometimes it would last for days. Like I said though, I made a breakthrough.